This is for Nana

This weekend I had a chance to go up and decorate Jackson's headstone for spring!  It's always so hard to go and even harder to leave.  It's been a while since we have been up there and it was really dragging on my heart.  So I made a point to go up and get it ready for Spring. 

I know for some people this may sound weird.  But for me, it's all I have.  It's the only way that I'm able to be a proud mama and make a big deal out of my baby!  It's so important for me to always have it decorated in the current season and it also let me know that we haven't forgotten him.  NOT that we will ever forget, but this is the one physical thing I can do to show how much we love him. 

My mom has been so great about giving me things to put on his headstone too.  It's her way of showing us that she still remembers too and how her only grandson is important to her too.  So Nana, here is a picture of the bubbles that you sent with me for Jackson.  I even spent a few minutes blowing some (and crying)! :)

I don't want every post to be about sad things, but right now, I'm just really sad.  I think it stems partly from the anxiety of the adoption process.  I know that it is only a matter of time before we will have a baby in heaven and a baby in our arms.  I long for that day when we can have that!

Thanks Nana for never forgetting!