Star Legacy Foundation

As kids, our parents had many good friends from church.  There was a family that both of their parents sang in the Church choir with my mom.  So, their kids, who were the same age as my sister and I, would run around the basement of the church and play games every Wednesday night for years. 

Fast forward many years later, there daughter Lindsey had a son that was born stillborn in 2004.  I remember hearing about it at the time, but not realizing the impact it would have on our lives down the road. 

In remembrance of their son, Garrett, Lindsey and her husband Trent created the Star Legacy Foundation.  The SLF is dedicated to research and education to prevent stillbirth.  I am thankful for the support that their family has provided to us over the past nine months.  It's one of those things that it's hard to understand until you have been there. 

Next weekend our families will make the trip to the Denver area for the annual Golfing for Garrett event.  On Friday evening, Dr. Jason Collins, from The Pregnancy Institute of New Roads, Louisiana, will be speaking to families, Dr's and nurses about his recent research regarding still birth.  If you are close to the Denver area, I encourage you to attend this event.  All the information can be found on the website.

I am very excited for a weekend of family, a weekend to remember sweet little Jackson, and of course raise money for an important cause.  Hope to see you there!

Tickets- Get your tickets! All aboard the TTC roller coaster!

Part of the reason I started this blog was to help me remember the journey we have been on.  So although this isn't a subject I talk about publicly, I think it is important to add to this blog so one day we can remember how far we have come.

July 1st, Jackson would have been nine months old.  We have persevered through Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, Mothers Day, Memorial Day, Fathers Day and now 4th of July.  We miss him so much everyday, but somehow each day gets a little bit easier.  I still have people ask at least once a week (see post below) how our baby is.  I have come to cherish that questions as it gives me the chance to tell everyone he was here, but is no longer and we miss him terribly. 

So- on to the title of this post.  The roller coaster of TTC (Trying to Conceive).  I never thought I would know the meaning of TTC, BBT, HPT, 2WW.  But now I do.  We have been TTC since December.  After six months, I went to our OB (Dr. Three) to see what our options were.  Our Family Practice Dr. had suggested we might think about Clomid.  Well-Dr. Three gave the kibosh to any fertility treatments until after one year has passed.  SO FRUSTRATED.  Her nurse tried to tell me me that six months wasn't that long.  My response was "well, you don't walk by an empty baby room every day."  That shut her up.  Stupid comments deserve stupid answers.  Once again, until you have walked in my shoes, you don't get to judge. 

Dr. Three's main concern  is that I am now a high risk patient and it would not be in my/my child's best interest to increase the chance for multiples.  I completely understand the medical perspective of that, and i respect that she is doing the best thing for me.  But GRRRRRRRRR.  It's the two week wait game that is killing me.  We have had 3 chemical pregnancies in the past three months.  It's amazing how you can get your hopes up in just one day! 

I would like to make a suggestion to those out there that are TTC.  We purchased the OV Watch a few months ago and it has be awesome. It's not magical, but it takes so much of the stress out of the process.  Although I did tell my niece that it was a magic watch!  You don't have to take a daily temp, all you have to do is wear the watch each night and it reads a chemical in your skin.  Love it!

I will keep my ticket for the TTC roller coaster, hoping that God will want me to trade it in soon.  I pray each day for a baby for us to hold and to love. 

A blog makeover!

Hello Friends!

As you can see- Tiny Toes and Sunshine Lullabies got a makeover! It's still not 100% the way I want it, but it will do for a while! When I began my blog I wasn't sure how much I would use it, but I have really enjoyed the blogging world so far.

I have been working on it for much of the 4th of July holiday weekend.  My husband thinks I'm a little crazy!  I'm not creative- AT ALL, so this has been hard for me.  I'm more of a black and white personality. 

I went on the garden walk with my mom last weekend.  It was SO fun.  It was my mom and three of her girlfriends whom have all been friends for over 40 years.  I think it is so wonderful that they have these friendships.  They have been through weddings (theirs and their children's), births, deaths, laughter and tears.  I think every women should have a core group of friends like this.  I am so lucky to have my sisters and my sweet friends to complete this group for me.  Each one of them has brought something special to my life! 

Here are a few pics from the garden walk.  (I promised to publish more pictures since Tara said post without pictures are boring! he he)

I love this water feature!  Someday we hope to have one in our yard!

Here is a beautiful yard (not sure who the random people are)!  I can't imagine how much time they spend in their yard!